over two months since my last update= my life has learned there's more to it than xanga!
but, nonetheless, i know that this is a great way to keep up with some people...so updation shall commence!

summer time is great! these are the puzzle pieces to it:
*sleeping in some days, and getting up nice and early others!
*cleaning lots of houses since i don't have a job!
*babysitting for a new family with a cute little 1 year old girl!
*playing photographer in all my spare time...haha i should just say time, b/c it's all spare!
*running more and more and loving it!
*helping my best friend from childhood (and still today) marca plan what will be an amazing wedding!
*learning what it means to seek His face when i don't exactly want to...and when that's all my heart longs for!
*thinking about (and for) a family on the other side of the planet that i miss so much!

the other puzzle pieces shall come soon:
*going on vacation with marca to a beautiful resort in mexico!
*moving into my apartment with some other amazing friends the day i get back!!!
*working at dbu in two offices!!!! ***YAY I GOT A JOB***
*reading and loving my life and the one who made it!
* praying for two(maybe 4) of my closest friends who'll be going to kenya (and maybe taiwan) with their beautiful feet to share about our Daddy! 

yep, there's my life!

recently,  i paid $4.65 to keep my sleep deprived and crusty eyes open so i could work on something i procrastinated on. thirty hours of not sleeping and PAYING to do so? where was intelligence? was it not cast in that scene? we've all done something like this, if not the exact same thing...and to that i have to say: america, we're dumb.

i wonder how many times in my life time i will write out my thoughts in a public forum like this and then end up pushing the delete button. Where do those go?

summer's a coming!
This is what that means:
       ~no school!!!
       ~work, work , work....but where? where? where?
       ~no liberians
       ~marca's wedding!!!!!!!!!!!!
       ~time for a dance class!!!
       ~a chance to read everything on my waiting list

speaking of waiting....if my last month or so had a title...it'd definitely be that. i think i've had to learn hard what this means, but can you imagine how much longer God has had to wait on us to spread the news...i would get annoyed at us...but "love is never irritable"(thank you NLT version!). waiting on his timing seems to be the core of this all. It's neat how he teaches me: gives each season a theme and then integrates it into each aspect of life-even where i thought not possible. eventually, (like this week) i begin to like what he's done. his picture is always bigger than my frame of reference. thank goodness!

here's a math story problem: Jessica takes 18 hours. Jessica has 6 classes. Jessica realizes today that she's only had 5 tests so far and 2 papers. Jessica has homework roughly once a week. Why?

whoa long entry. xanga's on it's deathbed, i heard. so i suppose that makes this like a good hacking cough!

i'm spending quality time with someone tomorrow.
i've been getting more acquainted with him lately.
i like his voice.
i like to hear what is on his heart.

his name is shawn m. and he and his newest thoughts now reside permenantly in my cd player.

p.s.- yes i realize how old school the term "cd player" makes me sound.
i am the friend you will always have that is ipod-less.

p.s.s.-my best friend of 10 years is getting married in August!!!



and she asked me to be the girl in the purple dress!

i think i'm misunderstood.

the rawness of my soul is in invisible to most.

but one.

HE sees me. the real me. and the gratitude i hold couldn't be heavier.

welp it's been awhile...but i'm liking the time i've taken away from xanga. Many of you i don't see as much b/c of my schedule...or yours...so here's an update.

        *i really love my schedule and classes this semester- intro to missions will be my favorite class by far, followed by a close second of PHOTOGRAPHY. my prof pretty much challenges me creatively more than any other professor/teacher i've ever had and my brain stinkin loves that!

        *one of my most recent obsessions is a math puzzle book that a friend's mom gave me. She's nice, so is her daughter and i just can't put my pen down.
 
        *January was a good and growing month.- i'm excited about february, for many mucho importante decisions will be made throughout it! To Him be all the glory...

        *Friends change- and this led me to the conclusion that i must too. This is good and shows me that my heart is forever in need  and He'll forever pursue it. Thanks Hay-soos

        *Elisabeth Elliot could be one of my favorite authors right now. i like her brain, which is so obviously controlled by the Spirit in her heart.

       *My family is growing...not in size, but knowledge....of how to deal with things unexpected, and how to love through it all. Prayers for us would gladly be accepted.

       *I want more deaf people in my life.  

       * I have a webcam. It's my favorite toy. And i get to talk to and SEE 5 special people in another country. Right now they don't have internet as often and i think i'm in withdrawl.
 
       * i have a new non-deaf friend, and the Lord is developing a unique relationship there. She's from China and our meeting was a divine appointment. He's showing and teaching me so much about the persecuted chuch recently and i can't help but think she is a tool to help my knowledge. We'll meet soon to talk about Yesu and what she's learning from the Shengjing. Xiexie Yesu.   

 pray for a different country today. especially if no one else is.